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Monday 29 October 2012

(Wk2) 10th October 2012 - 'RISK'

Gutted i missed the first day of the second week due to car trouble! Felt i had let my group down and missed out on alot of progression of our project. So, today i was keen to catch up with any developements my group had created. Straight away, Jade got me up to speed with the stages of our piece. She told me the group had made some slight changes, one being that we was now going to be portraying the risks of a night out with a varity of drugs involved, not just Ecstasy alone. We no also had more structure to the piece and the start of a story line.
Our characters were now as follows:

Jade & Mel - Club owners/Doormen.
Lauren - Club goer/has alot to drink.
Beth - Laurens friend/sensible one.
Shayne - Drug dealer/drug user/scruffy.
Me - Club goer/Cocaine user/takes drugs in club for Shayne.

At this point we decided that each character should have some sort of episode (scene with 2 or more characters in place) within the piece. Reason behind this was due to the intense audience involvement, and them being spread about the performance space (like on a night club dance floor) we needed the episodes to take place in intervals as a strong visual focas point for our audience. Another reason for the episodes was for the audience to gain more of an understanding of the story line and the roles that our characters had to play in the piece. We really didn't want our audience to miss key scenes in our performance due to too much going on at one time, or loud background music. Each character episodes are of great importance because they build an understanding of our 'Risk' message and objectives. So the episode idea will hopefully eradicate this issue.

We discussed venues for our performance. This developed many issues as we felt we needed a venue that would represent a night club like feel, dark with relevent lighting equiptment. All sorts of ideas were put forward, we even considered using a friend of mines actual bar on Broad Street to stage it! But realised after much consideration that although this was our 'ideal' venue, it was not the most convenient. We took in to account the amount of time, money and effort it would take to get the whole of the year 1, year 2 and tutors to the said venue! Our group managed to then sneak some rehearsal time in one of the performance spaces on the 2nd floor of the Mac. This was the room we had our class on our first day at the Mac last week. After assessing the space in more detail, we realised that this would be perfect to perform our piece in, as there was lots of floor space for our audience to stand (like a real night club dance floor) appropriate coloured lighting on the ceiling, and dark drapes over all the windows to give it that dark night club ambiaunce. We had our hearts set on it. But unfortunately, after voicing our requirements to Amy she confirmed that the performance space we had set our hearts on would cost alot of money to hire out for that purpose. Considering we didnt really have a budget to begin with, the concept of staging our piece here was swiftly drifting away! We was told the Hexagon performance space in the Mac was really our only option. The whole group felt really disappointed and disheartened at the news. Personally, i hadnt even seen the Hex for my own eyes to have a negative opinion about staging it there. I initailly went on the feedback and reaction of the others that had seen it to come to my negative opinion of it. Eventually the next day i got to take a look inside the Hex, and to my surprise i personally thought that it was perfect! It was dark with no windows, it had appropriate ceiling lighting, and had a small area to simulate a dance floor space. Although i did worry that because of the amount of seats in the Hex the audience would be tempted to sit down during our performance. This is something we wanted to avoid due to the audience participation and night club feel we hoped to create.
On reflection, i believe we spent too much time and effort being particular about the 'perfect venue' for our piece. Ok so we wanted to portray our club scene to be as real as possible for our audiences sake more than anything. But i think we kind of lost touch of our original purpose, and that was to produce our devised theatre version of 'Risk' - not to perfect a set in a high budget Hollywood film!

After many discussions, ideas, brain storming, disagreemants and conversations that didnt even have anything to do with our 'Risk' piece, we realised we needed to get started with actually rehearsing our scenes! We began rehearsing our first scene which was of the audience queuing outside the entrance doors whilst Mel and Jade stood at the door, stamping hands and asking our audience members for ID and searching them etc (this represented real events when entering an actual nightclub) This is also where myself and Shayne have our first episode together. It consisted of Shayne passing me a bag of 'drugs' and me reasurring him that i would get in with them as i knew the owners of the club (Mel & Jayde). This episode between me and Shayne was achieved with improvisation. We knew we needed to position ourselves in a place where we would be easily seen by the audience in the queue, and project our voices so that they were aware that our performance had started from that moment.
I then enter the 'night club' first skipping the queue as i greet the door supervisors as my mates. At this point Shayne is sent to the back of the queue with the others. This is the first portrayel of 'Risk' in our piece as my character enters the night club with a large amount of drugs on me. I believe this scene is an obvious adaptation of risk taking. Something simple yet effective to give our audience a taste of whats to come and to gain their understanding from the off.

We ran through this scene a few times to perfect it. We had earlier on decided that for each episode we thought it effective if we used music that would possibly relate to what was being portrayed or perhaps linked to the atmosphere of the scene we was attempting to create. Music is a great way of helping people relate to something, it also encourages emotion and builds tension. We wanted the audience to see, hear, feel and react from what we was producing, and go through all the feelings our characters were in each episode. Adding carefully selected music tracks would hopefully achieve this notion. It was decided that the music for the opening queue scene would be - 'Calvin Harris feat Ne-yo; Let go Remix'. This song is an upbeat and current track that we thought would get the audience in the mood for a party!









Sunday 28 October 2012

4th October 2012 - 'RISK'

Another day at the Mac Theatre. I was pleased we were told that we would be spending the majority of our time in rehearsals here. I like the feel of the place, it motivates me. I'm unsure why? Thinking about it, maybe its because i have been out of this kind of environment for so long, now I'm here i feel grateful to be back doing what i love in these creative surroundings?

We began our day with Amy tutoring us. But instead of her Physical Theatre class as instructed on the timetable, we continued in our project groups on 'RISK'. We started with a group warm up exercise called 'Splat', one which i have played once before but was never any good at for some reason! Hence why I'm not a lover of it! So truth be told, i was one of the first out the game and attempting 10 press ups on the floor!

When formed in our project groups for risk again, this day is really when the ideas started to form within our group. Jade, Mel, Beth, Lauren, Shayne and myself all decided on the topic of 'Drugs' to base our risk piece on. The idea was formed based on our discussions, knowledge, and personal experiences. We also felt that the topic of drugs and its risks was something that was current in society, so would reach out to a wide range of target audience's where many people could relate. We wanted our piece to be 'real', and not confuse people with abstract performance and hidden meanings. Many ideas were being thrown in at this stage. First one being that each one of us as individuals would represent an illegal drug (eg: Beth - Cannabis smoker, Shayne - took Ecstasy pills, Mel - Heroine addict, Me - Coke head, Jade - Crack head, Lauren - took LSD) and show through acting the journey each individual experience whilst on the drug from start to finish. http://listverse.com/2007/09/27/top-10-drugs-and-their-effects  But after more discussions with the group we realised we would struggle to portray a 'real' feel to our piece due to the conflict of environments associated with each drug. Because of the each drugs social differences we struggled to build foundations for our piece and became confused as to how we would link these very different social circles together. Some of the group members also felt uncomfortable with acting out scenes of drug use and behaviour, with no real life experience relating to this.

Another of our ideas was souly concentrating on Ecstasy, each of us portraying an effect this drug could potentially make you have or feel. Involving the positive feelings of 'coming up' and negative feelings of 'coming down'. We liked this idea, but changed it slightly after talks that there wasn't enough obvious visual physicality's to communicate to our audience that would suggest we was each acting out individual effects of the drug. Because of this we explored giving our piece a nightclub setting ideally with all of us acting as a group of friends experiencing Ecstasy and its effects together. Its at this point that we decided we wanted our audience to become part of our nightclub scene as the other night club goers, to get that 'real' feel to it. We wanted our audience to feel effected intensely by what was happening around them and too them when involved in our piece. We wanted to create an atmosphere, and to do so we needed them.

We talked about what kind of content and props we wanted in our piece, who our target audience was, and what we wanted to achieve and why? Amy helped us ask ourselves these questions, so that we developed more of an understand of purpose of what we was creating and how it links to our 'Risk' objective. As we had the idea of involving the audience in our club scene, we researched and thought of ways we could make lookalike drugs as props and give them out to our audience to add to the interactive piece we hoped for. http://smnetwork.org/forum/tools-of-the-trade/prop-drugs-on-stage/ This presents another avenue of 'Risk', not only in our piece, but for the audience also. Would they risk trying what we offered them?? (bearing in mind that we decided Smarties, Tictacs and Sherbet powder is what would really be on offer!)
As i mentioned previously, our target audience is vast as we believe many people whatever age have been effected by drugs at some point in their lives. Whether it be with themselves or someone they know. I researched the concept of drugs and Theatre together and discovered a blog written by Phil Fox the founder and artistic director of 'Outside Edge Theatre Company' which i found really interesting - http://www.londontheatreblog.co.uk/drugs-and-theatre-go-together/  He talks about his personal issues overcoming drugs and how theatre helped him with this. Also the realisation that this method is useful on others for the same purpose. This made me realise that our piece's purpose was to help people understand, or empathise with the characters in our piece and maybe somehow take themselves back to a moment when they did or did not take a similar related risk.
We chose a club scene because we wanted our piece to be interactive. As the majority of our audience for this performance will be performing arts students who know how to P.A.R.T.Y......we thought getting them involved in audience participation in our piece would be a doddle! (or would it??) Doubt crept into our heads as to whether our audience would actually play along!?

Another idea we had was perhaps adding some kind of Physical Theatre/Dance into our piece. After looking up 'DV8 - Physical Theatre Company' on You Tube we discovered how powerful movement can be in a piece of theatre. http://www.google.co.uk/search?q=dv8+cost+of+living+youtube&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&hl=en-gb&client=safari



3rd October 2012

Second day began at the Mac Theatre in Cannon Hill park. What an amazing place, surrounded by beautiful park views and a stunning river. I had never been here before, and it made me feel a sense of pride that i was studying within such a creative establishment. I was excited to be here, and eager to see what this day had in store for our group.

Our class was held in one of the performance spaces inside the Mac. It was great seeing everyone again, and we all chatted at the beginning of the lesson like we were old friends! Ellie was our tutor for the morning, and we began with a warm up exercise, alot like 'simon says'! During this exercise we were asked to form into groups of six as quick as we could, and was told that these were the groups we were going to be working in for our introductory production named.... 'RISK'!

'RISK' was apparently going to be a piece of 'Devised Theatre' within our groups. Devised theatre??? I had absolutely no clue as to what this was! So, i googled it! http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Devised_theatre
This really helped me grasp the meaning and purpose of what i was about to be involved in. On reflection, i realised in the past i have actually been part of many 'Devised Theatre' projects at school, but never really knew the correct term for what we had produced. Maybe i never listened back then? Or perhaps this fact was never communicated to me? I will never know! But the feeling of understanding the road i am about to walk upon became extremely comforting.

In our groups we were asked to discuss what kind of risks we had took in our lives. We spoke about, drugs, family, relationships, health, career, and education to name a few. I realised that potentially all of risk topics were ones that would have either a positive or negative outcome. As we spoke more within our group, it seemed obvious that the majority of risk taking in our personal lives had been ones with negative outcomes. We asked ourselves, 'Why negative?' And with that thought found ourselves deeply obsessed with thinking of personal positive risk taking! I struggled, but discovered that the answer was right in front of my face. I myself took the risk of entering back into full time education after previous years of working Monday to Friday, 9 till 5, earning a salary and providing for me and my children. I have risked leaving my financial Independence behind, but in doing so it has meant i am studying something that i am passionate about, and hopefully will one day make an excellent Performing Arts teacher and make a better life for myself and my children in the long run.

After brain storming 'RISK' with the whole class on the floor, it opened my eyes to endless avenues of subjects surrounding risk. Ones that i had never thought of before, this was interesting as it gave our group more scope for ideas for our own piece. This exercise also sparked memories of other risks i had personally took, thus adding more influence into our group discussions there after.

To complete the day, Ellie asked the group to look up a poem and its meaning - 'The road less travelled' by Robert Frost. http://www.phrases.org.uk/meanings/369200.html
This poem was very hard to understand at first, but with help from the link above and also - http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20060627054632AAtwWig i was able to get a better understanding. It seems there are a few different views on the meaning of this poem. Personally i feel it is about making a decision in life that is not the same as whats expected from them, or maybe different to what everyone else might do. Its about being different. Walking down the road that is less travelled is a Risk, but the benefit is discovering things that no one else has had the courage to do. For me, the poem also symbolises choosing a certain path in life, but because you have chosen that particular path, you have closed the doors to the other options you initially had and can never go back.

Saturday 20 October 2012

First Day....2nd October 2012

The only way i can begin my first attempt at the next two years of profuse blogging, is describing my personal feelings when entering a room full of faces that i am about to spend alot of time with! A time that will not only portray my personality, but also a whole array of characteristics, strengths and weaknesses that i may or may not of known existed!

On entering the room (late, may i add!) i recall feeling refreshed and put at ease by the relaxed and comfortable atmosphere that filled the room. It felt warming, like i had walked into this room filled with these people a hundred times before. There was also a strong feeling that this is where i'm suppose to be.... this is where i belong. There was no intense feeling of pressure, the usual self doubt question 'Am i good enough?' did not cross my mind. As a mature student entering back into education after many years, i was surprised this feeling never poisoned my mind like it usually would when delving into the unknown!

Moving on from my deep and meaningful blog introduction!
After meeting our tutors, Paul and Ellie then discussed our course in more detail. This clarified my initial decision of why i was here, and gave me the cherry on the cake confidence that i had made the right choice. Paul spoke about the course being a more practical approach to performance rather than being dominated by theory. Being a more practical/hands on type gal, this was music to my ears! Im not saying im incapable of written work or theory, only that my personal learning style is most effective when discussing and doing tasks, rather than staring at endless projector screens, sitting quietly, writing notes and giving the occasional nod! Zzzzzz......Sorry, did i nod off!?
Point being, i like to be creative as often as possible, hearing ideas from others and working together to create something inspiring. This opens my mind to thoughts and experiances it has never explored before.

Suddenly, we was asked to all stand in a circle. This is when the dred of nervousness hit me like a double decker bus! Shit, i knew now was the moment i was expected to interact with these strangers! (I make them sound like a bunch of tall, odd looking creatures with pockets full of child catcher style sweets dont I?!) All of a sudden my self doubt popped up and my confidence pissed off for a stroll! Did my fellow students notice? I doubt it - the look of dred and nervousness flooded their faces too! So i gathered i was not alone in this feeling! Is there such a thing as a 'Shy Actor?' In these initial moments, this seemed to ring true.

We began with a name association game with Ellie. This got us all relaxed and helped us remember the names of everyone on the course. You may now address me as 'Loving Lori'! At once the group seemed to strip back the anxiety that once filled our circle. Immediately i felt at ease and enjoyed every moment of  time getting to know my child catcher strangers.
Paul then introduced an excercise called 'Tick Tock', one which explores the skill of learning to focas on the 'here and now'. The group sat in a circle while two balls called 'Tick' and 'Tock' were passed around clockwise and anti-clockwise. The objective was for you as an individual to focas on what you are suppose to do and not be distracted by the other goings on in the circle. Personally i imagined 'becoming the moment' adapting my thoughts to what i had to do and blocking out any distractions around me. I achieved this by inventing my own 'Moment Bubble' I could still hear my fellow students voices that are part of my moment, but completely shut off my mind to any other noise or distractions outside my bubble! phew!
I feel this exercise gave me a real understanding of how to concentrate on the task at hand. Being involved in performances in the future will im sure present many distractions on stage. 'Tick Tock' is an effective way of practising the art of mind focas.

What a fantastic first day! I left feeling enthusiastic, excited, motivated and inspired.....

This was the first day of the rest of my life.